Chapter I- Carla's diary.
change is a constant. we had to deal with it optimistically."Enzo is acting really weird these days and its hard to figure out what he's been up to or does he have a plan to accomplish? phew. its bothering me. i wish things will get better and clearer and settled." just after i updated my journal, Enzo stood in front of me and i'm totally shocked.
- ENZO: whoah. it seems like you saw a monster in front of you.
- ME: yes. i did. what are you doing here? i mean, don't you have a basketball practice?
- ENZO: yes. we have but coach give us 15 minutes break. would you like to spend it with me?
"so, we went at the cafeteria to eat something and talk for a while before he courted me to my room and proceeded to his basketball practice. i have always dreamed about us, together. before. but it seems things and feelings have changed. he changed a lot into a person i had wished he would become but i don't like it now. i wish his personality will be back when i admired him the most. when we was just so gentle. i wish it hadn't happened."
it all started after the camp's activity. 11pm of the night and everyone in our room can't sleep as well as boy's room which is next to ours. they called us. Kevin texted us.
- *beep* let's play game girl's at boy's room.
- ANGELA: let's go girls. besides i can't sleep. who wants to come?
everybody agreed to play at girl's room. the boys brought something to eat-chips- from their luggage. after playing the cards and eating the chips, Ericka decided to go to sleep but Kevin stopped her.
- KEVIN: wait. let's open up. topic, crushes on someone and why.
- ELLEN: no. you boys just wanted to know what we feel and bump into us. no way.
- KEVIN: we'll open up too. right boys?
- BOYS: right. Kevin will start.
- OFFICER: you kids should start sleeping by now. you don't want to skip an exciting event tomorrow.
- KEVIN: hey! we didn't even heard our dear Carla speak.
- ME: th-the officer said let's go to sleep
- ALICE: Carla had a secret crush on Enzo.
- ME: thanks bestfriend.
- ALICE: no problem.
during the outdoor activity in the night, Enzo picked me as his partner. i was totally shocked. i don't know what to do now. my heart starts to stomp fast as the activity goes on, it beats faster and i can sense that me face turning into red. i just wish that we'll lose the competition earlier so we'll split up sooner. weird huh? but the chances are not going to let it. as the stars are shining above so bright, and as i wrap my hands around his shoulders, i am falling in love with him.
- ENZO: hey! nice game partner.
- ME: yea, a-am i that heavy?
- ENZO: heavy? no way. you're too skinny to be heavy.
- ME: oh.
Enzo and Alice were dating now. i am missing my best friend but i am happy for them. everybody thought i'm jealous but i told them not.
- ME: oh, i'm not jealous. i'm happy for both of them. that's why i'm going away if i go with them, they won't just enjoy their moment.
After graduation, Enzo and Alice split up. i never had a chance to say goodbye to the gang personally because i will be missing the flight then but i left Enzo a letter.
Chapter II- enzo's diary
diaries are for boys too..OCT 1,
- we had a new classmate. her name is Carlatrix. she's so skinny but i fell love at first sight at her. gaaaawd, she's so pretty. when she introduce herself, she was just herself-loud and funny. that's the reason i like her. i am too shy to talk to her so i'll be staring at her silently from behind since she's two seats ahead of me from the next row, perfect position. :) i wish someday, i can tell her my inner feelings. :)
- i am excited to go to a 3-day camping at our school. i dont go to camps but since Carla is joining too, i should go then. haha in fact, i already packed up. am i too excited?
- we played cards and eat some chips at girl's room. as usual, Carla was so noisy when she cracks joke, no one laughs at it but its funny, really. so shuts her mouth for a while them talks again with her bestfriend, Alice. Alice is much more cute than Carla. after the play, we had an open topic thing. crushes on someone and why. since all the other boys had a crush on Alice, i joined them to that so Carla wouldn't notice it. that's the lamest thing i have ever done. it was Carla's turn when the officer came to us to. i was eager to know whom she liked then that i blushed when Alice shouted, "Carla had a crush on Enzo".
- im do happy tonight. Carla and I were on the same group. despite of winning the game, it seems like i won on a million dollar raffle promo.
- CAPTAIN: each group needs to have two pairs. each pair has to trusttheir partners.
- ME: Carla, would you like to be my partner?
- Carla: Ok
- Me: we volunteer* Do you trust me?
- Carla: Aladdin? ha-ha
- Me: yes Jasmine. My Princess.
- Carla: oh, you watching that cartoon? how gay of you.
- CAPTAIN: on your mark, go!
- we had a conversation while she's on my back and it feels great to have her there. its like, she's hugging me really tight. after that game, i think i offended her for saying she's so skinny. that was very rude of me. i hope she won't mind it. i have a confession to tell, she is heavy. really. that's why we didn't won the first place.
- last day of school for this year. next year, it will be prom. i'm excited for that.
- i guess i found a way to communicate with her again. her bestfriend Alice will help me. She and I were chosen to be the Junior whatever is that. when we go for walk to the practice, she always talks about Carla. how she's blessed with a bestfriend like that but i think she was rude when she said," Carla is very funny but she will never have a relationship because she's scared."
- i saw Alice and Carla walking to home a while ago. i should have ask Carla to be my date but i suddenly felt shyness and ask Alice instead. that was a total jerk of me.
- i wouldn't want to go to the prom but i will be so much jerk if i won't show up to Alice. i didn't regret it at all coz Carla was there being gorgeous. everybody danced with her so i didn't felt shy to ask her but when its my turn, the music plays soft.
- Me: oh, i don't know how to dance this kind of music.
- Carla: will you leave me here instead? come. i'll teach you. just hold my hand and feel the music. come
- from that moment, i fell deeply in love with her. i still smells her perfume til now.
- i saw Carla and Kevin talking at the Cafeteria. they seem so happy together. i was hurt so i didn't eat for today.
- senior year is fast approaching. i should study more. maybe, i'll eventually forget my feeling for Carla since she and Mark are going out together now.
- everybody greeted me for my birthday but Carla, me and Alice go out together to celebrate my birthday. i can sense that there's something odd between her and Carla.
- senior prom is on friday but i can't attend because of my illness. maybe i shouldn't go too for it will be painful in my eyes to see Carla with all those boys.
- yesterday was prom and i learned that Carla didn't go. i wonder what happened to her.
- i tried to talk to Carla but Josh was there so i didn't have a chance.
Chapter III- the lost diary
my diary got lost. i didn't have the time to look for it because of basketball practice. Spring game is upcoming.when i see Carla with no one, its just the chance i have waited for. i talked to her and had a snack time together. she's so amazing.
After graduation, Alice handed me a gift with a note saying, open it when you're alone. it seems important but i have to look for Carla...
- ME: where's Carla?
- ELLEN: she just left. she said she'll be missing her flight.
- ME: how did you know?
- ELLEN: i'm with her the entire ceremony. by the way, she told me to give this to you.
Chapter IV- Carla's letter
Enzo,- hi. i don't know what to say or where to begin, really. by the time you read this, i'm far now. i guess you noticed that i'm avoiding you since you and Alice became close. close enough to lose my best friend when i am close enough to be with my crush. :"> i don't want to ruin the relationship with both of you so i decided that its for the best. i don't know why i'm writing this to you but i just feel like writing it. silly me. i really felt shy when you're around and i feel odd.
- i like you from the very first time i saw you and i still like you even though i always ignore my feelings for you. maybe someday you'll like me too just the way i always dreamed about but i know i sounded ridiculous coz it will never gonna happen. maybe, just in my dreams.
- i won't forget you coz when i see stars, i remember you carrying me. and it was the best feeling, ever.
- CONGRATULATIONS, MR. VALEDICTORIAN.
Carlatrix
i felt like crying when i read this. then i remembered, Alice's gift. i opened it..
Chapter V- the gift
its my diary. she stole it?Note: im sorry if i borrowed your journal for a while. i thought i can find something here and the thought was right. you are in love with Carla. from the very start. the moment i told everyone that Carla has a crush on you, i saw a spark on your eyes. i ignored that. when i told you that Carla won't have a relationship, i saw a bitter face. i ignored that too. i felt jealous when you dances with her at the prom. but ignored that again and thought you liked me when we go out together but im a jerk. you and Carla makes a good couple. but she's leaving now and i ruined a relationship that might become perfect. im sorry enzo. i hope you'll forgive me.
Love,
Alice <3
i was angry at first but still forgives Alice. i wanted to talk to her but she was out of sight. everybody greeted me. my family prepared a big celebration and invited all my classmates and friends, but neither Carla nor Alice was spotted.
Chapter VI- the end, the beginning
i started writing in my journal again..Graduation day,
- Saddest part of my life. i hope Carla and I will meet again, someday.
- Carla and I met again by accident after 10 years. i still agree that its fate. :)
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